Thursday, November 12, 2009
{ 1:52 AM }
Had Bio UT today, wasn't that hard ,but same old thing as chem, i dunno how to do even the most simple question. I know and have a feeling that i will do badly for ut1. study is just so hard and tiring. i did study but idk why it cant get through my brain and stay inside. Just like what my dad said, i need to change the way i do thing. I'm slow in whatever i do, eating,drinking,studying,doing work and etc. But, it's hard to change overnight. im trying hard to change to a better person. i'm really trying. But people around me dun see my effort in doing so.
Okay, something real bad and scary happened today. I serously dislike those typical malaysians who speak like a babarian and shouting like a crazy woman. and those typical malaysia bengs. It happened so suddenly, i was scared by e scene and i cried. i know i sound useless but my tears just roll down so naturally. i feel so hopeless and helpless, i cant help my sis and how i wished papa were there and scold the crazy woman up, down ,left and right.
I thought of calling dear at that tym but i didnt cos i guess he's sleeping and dun wished to disturb him. And so, money is what people love. so realistic and argh.
I know she'e feeling real bad and scared.. But i can't help much cos i dun hv savings. i'm so broke recently. i spent all my money. i spent all my money for this week pocket money and even spend all that i have earned by helpin parent. Today is only wednesday. Nevermind! I will get to earned 80bucks on Sat & Sun.. Money can be earned back, no point getting troubled over it.
This coming friday is MATHS UT! i'm terrified and yes, feeling hopeless. Maths is never easy for me at all except when i'm in kindergarden? LOL. Just a word to describe" DIE".
i wished that u'll get well soon!
i wished that a smile will appear on ur nick soon!
i wished u're happy every single day!
i wished that ur dreams will all come true eventually.
i just love u so much that idk how to describe it out.
