Saturday, August 29, 2009
{ 12:29 AM }
Have alot in mind to type out, but when typing, i have no idea what to type in here. I honestly admit that i dun like bf to go to pub and drink but it's his entertatinment and the things he enjoyed with his brothers and what's most important is that he's happy. So i shouldn't be selfish and stopping him to do what he likes, but I just feel insecure and worry a lot when he's going to pub with friends. i did not tell him about it till just now, i texted him and told him. Hopefully, it wont spoiled his mood cos i dun want it to happen that way.i just want to let him know what i'm thinking and at the same time i feel happy when he's happy too.(:
Well, i told myself to stop thinking negatively but it's useless..it just keep hanging around in my mind like i dun want it to but cant't help it!!!=/
yup, one more thing that trouble me in mind is bf msn's pm,:( wondering what happened to him.But i know he doesn't like me to ask him about.Hopefully he will tell me about it when he feel like.
I feel that they are so unfair, why do i have to help them during each and every of my holiday while sis can go out and enjoy herself during hoiliday.it's really unfair and i kinda numb alr.i dun have time to meet every of my fren.i feel so stuck and time is always never enough for me. i want to enjoy my holiday like the rest of my frens but i cant. sad*.. life is always unfair. =/
I think i'm going to sleep or what, feel so tired yet not sleepy.
Hope bf is enjoying with his fren and im sure he is=)..
Hope that i can erased every troubles in me which is impossible.
sweet dreams to myself :) and all of u! :D
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